You're not a Slayer if you don't...

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... rape a girl.

I know that rape was discussed a bit here, but damn at these stories:



It's taken a long while for me to admit this horrible truth about myself. I've been in denial for years and if you'd ever read some of the things I wrote in certain forums on the topic of rape you'd think I was the most militant, uncompromising feminist out there. But this was all a cover up for a reality I couldn't accept: a man forced his penis into me against my will and raped me and I orgasmed from it. My mouth said no but my well lubricated vagina said yes and I have had to deal with these two irreconcilable things for years now.

I hated the thing between my legs for what it did it to me. I wanted nothing to do with it. I dind't even want to wash it in the shower. I hated that when, out of desperation, I did masturbate I could only come when I thought about him that night, pinning me down, pushing my panties aside and forcing himself into me. I cried and told him to stop as I was climaxing. I could feel myself contracting around his penis at the same time I was loudly protesting his violation. He felt it too. He told me I loved it. I hated him for making me come.
I've been drinking some tonight and I finally have the courage to tell the truth. I try to be a strong feminist and hate my rapist for forcing me but I think of that night and I get wet.
I've been careful to only date nice guys but they don't satisfy me. These men have been what every woman is supposed to want. But I don't want them. I want the asshole who kept fucking me even while i was crying, who clamped his hand over my mouth when I yelled for him to stop.
I shouldn't be like this. I hate the hole between my legs. I wish I could just sew it shut and never have to deal with again :(


- BAD BOY WITH BAD PAST MAKES HER PUSSY WET:
For reasons that will become clear shortly I have to be vague with a lot of details with this post.
I'm in my mid 20s and work for a small company as a receptionist. Most of my coworkers are men. From day one I was getting hit on by a lot of the guys but it's in my nature to want to be the Cool Girl so I just went with it. They all knew I had a long time boyfriend who I live with so most of the flirting & sexist remarks were just in good fun. They would try to embarrass me and I'd just roll with it and give it back. Honestly, none of these guys ever thought I was serious in my flirtations and I knew they weren't serious either.
All except for Randall (that's not his real name). He gave me a bad vibe from day one. He was always quiet and didn't join in the breakroom banter like the other guys but the way he looked at me was always disconcerting. Also, he was older than most of the others and looked like a person with a bad past. I eventually found out that he'd been in prison for attempted murder of his second wife about fifteen years ago. I thought that was just a work rumor but it turned out to be true. Even though I didn't believe it he still gave me the creeps.
One day my boss asked me if I could stay late to finish a new database entry project. This was not unusual. I often stay late at work and sort of rely on the overtime that provides. That particular day I didn't finish up until about eight, long after everyone else had left. As usual I went around to make sure the warehouse had been locked up, turn off the lights, all of that.
While in the warehouse I was attacked by Randall. It turns out he had waited the entire time for me to come back there (the doors separating the warehouse from the front office lock automatically after 5 and only a couple people, myself included, have the key). He grabbed me and started calling me a bunch of filthy names. He hit me so hard I was certain he broke my jaw (he didn't but he did chip three of my teeth). I was so stunned by the sudden attack I barely made a sound.
He tore at my clothes after that leaving them in tatters. He held me down with one hand around my neck while he mauled my body with the other. I was absolutely terrified. I honestly thought he wanted to kill me. But I do admit that for some reason, the adreneline the confusion the whatever, my body did respond in ways I wouldn't have dreamed.
I've been told this isn't unheard of. Some say it's the body's way of defending itself during a rape so that the damage is minimized. But to be honest it was more than that for me. The thing I can't tell anyone is that I actually had several orgasms during the assault even though the actual rape didn't last very long.
Don't get me wrong: as soon as he was gone I was a crying mess and the first thing I did was call 911. And I was in severe pain, espeically my jaw/teeth, my vagina, and my breasts (he mauled the hell out of them) among other things. I was in the hospital for two days and did everything I was expected to do. Randall was arrested and pleaded guilty to two of the four counts he was charged with. At the last minute he changed his mind about some other counts he was charged with and so there will be a trial but everyone tells me it will be a slam dunk case. I probably don't even need to testify.
Everyone in my life, from my boyfriend to my parents to my friends, thinks it's weird that I'm basically back to my old self already. They don't say that, but I can tell. My dad doesn't understand why I don't sue the company and is outraged I still work there (I got a long paid leave after the assault but I did return). My boyfriend keeps trying to get me back into therapy.  (JUST LOL AT THE BETA CUCK STILL BEING WITH HER. HE WILL NEVER MAKE HER PUSSY WET AFTER THAT)
All my friends, especially my male friends, treat me totally different.

The worst thing is that I even fantasize about rape now, which is supposed to be common unless you've actually been violently raped the way I was. I asked my boyfriend if he'd be interested in doing some light bondage with me awhile ago and he freaked out. In fact, he's become so timid in bed that it's like he either sees me as damaged goods or he's worried I'll freak out if he shows the least amount of agression. (AS I SAID : HYPER-MEGA CUCK)
I feel so guilty about not being traumatized by what happened that I have actually forced myself to cry while recounting the attack. As in, if I make myself appear messed up people will accept me. If I don't, they'll think something's really wrong.
And yes I've been in therapy. I hear this crap all the time about how I'm still in shock but I'm really not. When Randall forced himself on me I stopped struggling for the most part and just enjoyed myself. There was something very carnal and amazing about that but how can I explain that to a doctor? Or to a detective? Or to my loved ones?

How can I come during sex with my boyfriend? I find it impossible to reach orgasm unless I'm doing it myself, with extreme, violent fantasies. I've tried fantasizing about the same stuff during sex, but it's hard to reconcile with the reality of my gentle, loving boyfriend, even if we have rough sex or (to a degree) act out the fantasy. (COUGH -- CUCK -- COUGH)


When I was 17, I was raped by two men. One of them had a knife, with which he made shallow cuts on my breasts, arms, and neck. During the assault, I didn't know they were shallow and I was afraid he was going to kill me. FWIW, one of the men was an acquaintance and his friend was a stranger.

For about three years afterward, I did not date or have sex, and rarely masturbated. I started dating again when I was 20, and I'm 25 now. I've been with my current, amazing boyfriend for two years, and he's the first man with whom I've been able to actually enjoy sex. Since the assault, I haven't been able to come during oral sex or intercourse, and the only way I can climax is through masturbation while thinking about violent rape and/or breast mutilation. I've tried reverting to the type of fantasies I used to have (oral sex, romantic love, sensual massage), but it doesn't do anything for me anymore. Two of my high school boyfriends were able to get me off via fairly clumsy oral sex. Now, I'm so accustomed to only coming while thinking about slight variations on the violent rape theme. Though I know rape fantasies are common among rape victims and women in general, I do feel some guilt. Also, if might be relevant that I don't think about myself being raped; I think about a make-believe, doesn't-exist-IRL woman being raped. Another factor is that even though my boyfriend is wonderful and we are in love, I sometimes have this irrational feeling that no man truly cares about a woman, and that the secret truth is that women are nothing but fuckholes that are fun to hurt.
A few months ago I got raped by my friend's brother, he was very rough with me and the whole thing just traumatized me, i've lost all my confidence and i'm unable to trust people, it's like all men want to target me..i mean that's how I feel. but the worst part is during the rape i had an orgasm but i hated it, but my body was responding in a different way

I really think i'm turning into a freak, I feel so disgusting, people get raped and i can't believe that i sometimes want to experience my rape again. I'm really need help but I don't know who to tell, if I tell my family they will blame me for the rape and call me a whore, and if I tell doctors I don't want them to think that I'm crazy. 

This is seriously driving me mad. Being raped is the worst thing that has ever happened to me , I don't understand how I can ..you know..oh I don't know, I just sometimes want it to happen again and afterwards I feel nasty and inhuman for wanting it... 

I want to tell my boyfriend , I really do, but he doesn't know that I got raped and only sees me as the sweet, shy, conservative girl that I used to be..but now I'm just feeling so wrong. 

I'm sorry if you don't get what I mean by the above, I just can't explain.

[font=Helvetica,Arial,sans-serif]I dont just mean being dominated, or a fantasy in bed, but full on violent rape. [/font]

[font=Helvetica,Arial,sans-serif]A few months ago, I got raped for the first time. It was 4 large guys that threw me in a van, and went at me for nearly an hour. At first I reacted like a normal victim, screaming kicking, trying to fight back. But after the second switch I realized, I was actually enjoying this! Wtf was wrong with me, I should not be liking it? But I found myself cooperating and getting off more times than I can remember. [/font]

[font=Helvetica,Arial,sans-serif]Since then I have been going out of my way to find situations for it to happen again. I've been putting myself in danger in the worst parts of town to find it. I've even had to go to the hospital after one particularly rough time, but I still keep going back out. [/font]

[font=Helvetica,Arial,sans-serif]What is wrong with me and why am I loving this? I have never had any submissive or masochistic tendencies, I have always been rather vanilla other than being bi-sexual.[/font]

 

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I can't believe you post this shit and even bother to bold out the "important parts"

:facepalm:
 

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Women truly are broken creatures. They get off on abuse, it's time to stop beating around the bush about it. If you want your girl to stay attracted to you you must abuse her in some way.
 

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Rape is the most alpha thing you can do srs
 

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My sister once told me that sex should be "borderline rape"
 
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Magnus said:
Rape is the most alpha thing you can do srs
legit. look at those refugees giving orgasm to eurocucks' women and they pay them money for doing it.
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Amnesia said:
My sister once told me that sex should be "borderline rape"
you should have tried it on her :giggle:
 

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BlueBalls said:
Amnesia said:
My sister once told me that sex should be "borderline rape"
Seriously?

Fucking lol if legit, your sister man
Shes a freak 100+ partner count, fucked tons of guys off craigslist, dated porn photographers,etc

She always said she had 'daddy issues' also, all srs.
 
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Amnesia said:
Shes a freak 100+ partner count, fucked tons of guys off craigslist, dated porn photographers,etc

She always said she had 'daddy issues' also, all srs.
did she have a father(whom she met/grew up with of course)?
 

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SEAN O said:
Amnesia said:
Shes a freak 100+ partner count, fucked tons of guys off craigslist, dated porn photographers,etc

She always said she had 'daddy issues' also, all srs.
did she have a father(whom she met/grew up with of course)?
Ya but he was always at work, worked his ass off so we could live a with a $350,000 income in an extremely nice neighborhood but he was almost never home. So she blamed him for being a terrible father and never there for her. He never abused any of us or anything, imo he was a good father. 


I hate women, you can never please them.
 
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Amnesia said:
Ya but he was always at work, worked his ass off so we could live a with a $350,000 income in an extremely nice neighborhood but he was almost never home. So she blamed him for being a terrible father and never there for her. He never abused any of us or anything, imo he was a good father. 


I hate women, you can never please them.
legit.


P.S. I could be her daddy


bTW, have you tried to fuck her? srs question
 

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SEAN O said:
Amnesia said:
Ya but he was always at work, worked his ass off so we could live a with a $350,000 income in an extremely nice neighborhood but he was almost never home. So she blamed him for being a terrible father and never there for her. He never abused any of us or anything, imo he was a good father. 


I hate women, you can never please them.
legit.


P.S. I could be her daddy


bTW, have you tried to fuck her? srs question
Shes not that hot, but I'd be lying if I said the thought never crossed my mind, I've certainly had dreams where I did.


She thought ER was hot, and woulda fucked him she told me that aafter he went crazy and was on the news
 

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Women are supposed to be claimed by physically stronger males. Just lol if you think this PRIMAL INSTINCT has vanished just because some fat feminist cat-lady says so.
 
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