Hypothetical Suicide Note

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It appears like my dad is ranting about something on the phone with my sister again. Probably about me. Since my sister talked to me on the phone after and made me look through some specialist program in IT at community colleges in the GTA. And had me look at a business analyst program (ugh). Not seeming to care that I'm barely responsive and obviously depressed/demotivated.  If I had the will to kill myself now, this would be my hypothetical suicide note:

Hypothetical Suicide Note

I fucking hate this world. I regret that my dad busted a nut into my mom and created me. Giving me autism in the process because of his old sperm and my mom's old eggs. Humans are selfish. They are ruled by greed. Girls in Bangladesh are forced to work in brothels fucking and sucking 20+ cocks a day in exchange for 3 meals a day, a tiny ass room in a scrap metal shanty town building, water and clothing. No electricity. No running water, they gotta walk to a lake to fill a jug and shit. The madame keeps all of the money they earned from their prostitution. Aside from providing the prostitute with the above mentioned essentials. Humanity disgusts me.

I realize how black humanity was ever since I was four years old and kids in kindergarten would make fun of me because I was different. For being autistic. Ever since, humanity has treated me like a second-class citizen for being autistic. Bullied in kindergarten, bullied in elementary school, bullied in high school, bullied in post-secondary, bullied in the workforce. I fucking hate humans. I wish I could go ER on all of humanity. Just drop a fucking nuke on the earth and kill all 7+ billion of you. Make the world pure. We are primitive beasts. Our entire existence is to eat, drink, shit, piss, work, fuck and sleep. We are inconsequential little shit stains yet we were brainwashed to believe we were special little snowflakes as children.

What's the fucking point in even going on? Working like a slave to the benefit of your fat cat employer, your government, your family, etc. just to have the prime of your life cucked out of you. Cucking the most productive years of your life. Until you are left an old, broken down, sick man at 67 years old. Never having the opportunity to truly enjoy yourself. If you manage to not get a heart attack in the office before then that is. All the while, rich trust fund kids like Rich Kids of Instagram spend $40,000 on bottle service at night clubs and never have to work a day in their lives. Yes, life is worth living. It's worth having your customers belittle and bully you. It's worth living in a world where your boss and management don't respect you. You're just a cuck bitch slave to them. It's worth living a life where women don't respect you. A life where society doesn't respect you. You're just a cuck bitch to society. Fuck them.

One of these days I'm going to either obtain a handgun, put it in my mouth and shoot myself or drive to a suburban Toronto subway carpark and jump in front of an incoming subway train. And strap my manifesto and this suicide note to my body. So that the Toronto Police and Media will see it when they examine my body. And then I'll donate my estate to autism research as a final Big F-U to my family.
 
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I SUMMARIZED THIS USING MS WORD BC I LEGIT CANT HANDLE ALL THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW

Giving me autism in the process because of his old sperm and my mom's old eggs.

Girls in Bangladesh are forced to work in brothels fucking and sucking 20 cocks a day in exchange for 3 meals a day, a tiny ass room in a scrap metal shanty town building, water and clothing.

I realize how black humanity was ever since I was four years old and kids in kindergarten would make fun of me because I was different.

Bullied in kindergarten, bullied in elementary school, bullied in high school, bullied in post-secondary, bullied in the workforce.

Until you are left an old, broken down, sick man at 67 years old.

All the while, rich trust fund kids like Rich Kids of Instagram spend $40,000 on bottle service at night clubs and never have to work a day in their lives.

It's worth having your customers belittle and bully you.
 

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JEWISH CUCK SQUAD said:
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I SUMMARIZED THIS USING MS WORD BC I LEGIT CANT HANDLE ALL THIS SHIT RIGHT NOW

Giving me autism in the process because of his old sperm and my mom's old eggs.

Girls in Bangladesh are forced to work in brothels fucking and sucking 20 cocks a day in exchange for 3 meals a day, a tiny ass room in a scrap metal shanty town building, water and clothing.

I realize how black humanity was ever since I was four years old and kids in kindergarten would make fun of me because I was different.

Bullied in kindergarten, bullied in elementary school, bullied in high school, bullied in post-secondary, bullied in the workforce.

Until you are left an old, broken down, sick man at 67 years old.

All the while, rich trust fund kids like Rich Kids of Instagram spend $40,000 on bottle service at night clubs and never have to work a day in their lives.

It's worth having your customers belittle and bully you.
You make the time to watch stupid shit on TV or Netflix (bread and circus bullshit fed to by the masses by the elite). But you don't make the time to read a few paragraphs of existentialism. This is why our world is so fucked up.
 

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just lol if your suicide note isnt short and without any melodramatic


something like


didnt feel it. no desire for an sub8 non billlionair life. 


p.s.
bury me face down so the whole world can kiss my ass
 

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I don't think that I will write a suicide note. I mean my family dosent really give a shit, and honestly I don't care about what will they think. Honestly they are pretty unimportant to me, so why bother writing a suicide note
 
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FuckThis said:
I don't think that I will write a suicide note. I mean my family dosent really give a shit, and honestly I don't care about what will they think. Honestly they are pretty unimportant to me, so why bother writing a suicide note

EVEN IF YOU HAD A NORMAL FAMILY AND KEEDS, NOBODY ON EARTH (EXCEPT KIDS) WOULD EVEN KNOW OF YOU 20 YEARS AFTER YOUR DEATH ANYWAY. BUT FOR INCELS THAT NUMBER SHOULD BE *MINUS* 50 YEARS.
 

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dude your signature is fucking nasty shit

isnt it against rules to have such graphical sig?
 

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FuckThis said:
I don't think that I will write a suicide note. I mean my family dosent really give a shit, and honestly I don't care about what will they think. Honestly they are pretty unimportant to me, so why bother writing a suicide note
I want to give my remaining family (dad, sister, brother) a big "Fuck You" before I die. And by jumping in front of a subway train in Toronto and strapping a manifesto and letter to my body, that's like a "protest" against society.

Instead of contributing to society in STEM fields just to help Chads hook up with sluts with the technology we develop and never being appreciated for it by society, I want my fellow autists to go on strike. In the most permanent way (suicide). I basically want to start a suicide cult and take down society with us. Society will devolve just like in the movie "Idiocracy" without STEM. We will get our revenge.

I also encourage all the browncels and chinacels studying STEM to mass-suicide as well. This is the only way we will be free. To be one with Gandhi. We are all slaves on this earth. This is our only freedom.
 

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alien said:
FuckThis said:
I don't think that I will write a suicide note. I mean my family dosent really give a shit, and honestly I don't care about what will they think. Honestly they are pretty unimportant to me, so why bother writing a suicide note
I want to give my remaining family (dad, sister, brother) a big "Fuck You" before I die. And by jumping in front of a subway train in Toronto and strapping a manifesto and letter to my body, that's like a "protest" against society.

Instead of contributing to society in STEM fields just to help Chads hook up with sluts with the technology we develop and never being appreciated for it by society, I want my fellow autists to go on strike. In the most permanent way (suicide). I basically want to start a suicide cult and take down society with us. Society will devolve just like in the movie "Idiocracy" without STEM.

I also encourage all the browncels and chinacels studying STEM to mass-suicide as well. This is the only way we will be free. To be one with Gandhi. We are all slaves on this earth. This is our only freedom.
oh how naïve are you darling

there is no escape in death, we are here forever... You will suffer until God says it is enough for your sins
 

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FuckThis said:
oh how naïve are you darling

there is no escape in death, we are here forever... You will suffer until God says it is enough for your sins
There is no God. God is Dead.

Religion is used as a form of social control.
 

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alien said:
FuckThis said:
oh how naïve are you darling

there is no escape in death, we are here forever... You will suffer until God says it is enough for your sins
There is no God. God is Dead.

Religion is used as a form of social control.

It is not true, God is not dead, this wolrd is just illusion, our cage.
Thes is no escape, and really religion is not a social control at all, church is, but if you read the source material. God gives all rights that the state cannot take. religion is very rebelios in fact, but a lot people don't understand that.


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FuckThis said:
dude your signature is fucking nasty shit

isnt it against rules to have such graphical sig?

No, it's quite compact and does not violate the social norms of LOOKISM.NET

ok, helpful rabbi
 

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I found out that 2/3rds of the people who attempt suicide in a TTC subway station end up alive. Only 1/3 of attempted suicides result in a fatal ending. Fuck. So this means that I definitely have to get a gun if I were to ensure a successful suicide when the time comes. I'm afraid of a botched suicide attempt. Where I remain alive with permanent/chronic disabilities/injuries or being put on suicide watch. Helium bag exit apparently has a high failure rate and it's probably difficult or a lot of work to get a gun in Canada. You can't just walk into a Wal-Mart, show them your DMV registration and get a gun like that like you can in America.

I have also developed a paranoid obsession lately that my dad might have me committed to a mental hospital if I don't go to school or work. Or take away my computer or something (which would be theft because I paid for it, it's my property). He can kick me out but he wouldn't have the heart to do that. At any rate, I'm probably trying his patience right now.
 

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Why not go volunteer at a soup kitchen and give back to those less fortunate than yourself to counteract the blackness in humanity?
 
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ALIEN, I HOPE YOU LEAVE BEHIND A PERPETIUAL NON-PROFIT TRUST THAT FURTHERS THE CUASE OF INCELS EVERYWHERE. OVER THE YEARS / DECADES/ CENTURIES IT WILL AMASS AN INCREDIBLE FORTUNE AND USHER IN A NEW PRO-INCEL AGE (GOV FUNDED/MANDATED 18 YO SLENDER BLONDE OR BRUNETTE GF FOR EVERY INCEL)
 

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purps drank said:
Why not go volunteer at a soup kitchen and give back to those less fortunate than yourself to counteract the blackness in humanity?
If you read my "why don't more people on earth commit suicide?" thread, you would have read that I had actually volunteered 3x a month (it was mental health related too!) And I did so for 5 years. And stopped shortly after my mom was diagnosed with cancer because I couldn't handle working in that environment anymore then for obvious reasons.
 

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alien said:
purps drank said:
Why not go volunteer at a soup kitchen and give back to those less fortunate than yourself to counteract the blackness in humanity?
If you read my "why don't more people on earth commit suicide?" thread, you would have read that I had actually volunteered 3x a month (it was mental health related too!) And I did so for 5 years. And stopped shortly after my mom was diagnosed with cancer because I couldn't handle working in that environment anymore then for obvious reasons.


Good work, sorry about your mom.
 

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Ivan Fyodorovich said:
legit you need to set up a charitable remainder trust before your end it
I'm thinking of leaving my estate to autism research. But I want to leave it to a good organization. Not one that just takes 80% to pay their own inflated salaries and only puts 20% to actual good use for researching autism or helping people with autism.

I'm also thinking about donating my brain to autism research. To figure out the neurochemical impact of autism. And how autism contributes to depression and suicidal ideation. Giving scientists any sort of forensic clues as to what they can do to cure autism. And so on. But depending on my suicide method, my brain might be too badly damaged to evaluate. There are some pro athletes who actually shot themselves in the head and their brain was able to be evaluated for CTE after death. I guess it depends on how you do it.

Though my dad, brother's family and my sister will no doubt try to challenge this in court (giving my estate to autism research). And argue that I was in diminished capacity, etc. Family are the biggest blood suckers out there. They'd probably pretend to cry at my funeral. And then go straight for my money.
 
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