04-05-2017, 03:32 AM
two summers ago I was in my prime. I had multiple girls interested in me, I drew looks and IOIs in many public places. I was even approached several times and heard whispered comments. I was 6'5" 210ish pounds maybe 13% bodyfat. Big delts and juicy legs (girls loved my legs) but I was really skinny overall despite being a gymcel. My hair was good, face lean, skin glowing, blue eyes haloing, etc...
about a year ago I let insecurities get the best of me because I thought I was far too skinny to be attractive. I went full roidcel mode. Didn't achieve the adonis bod but I put on 25 pounds of muscle. Now I'm 235 pounds 13% bodyfat but my face is ruined. I am holding water like a motherfucker. Jawline/cheeks are bloated to shit because of small facial features + test. Hairline has receded a bit. Skin looks old and tattered, like I lost my youthful glow. Bags under eyes always idk why.
and guess what? I have not received a single IOI since embarking on this madness. And my body dysmorphia has only gotten worse.
I have become depressed as shit because my face is ruined and I still don't have the body I want, or anything close b/c of delusional internet standards. I still feel small ffs.
I hate looking like this though. Should I just ditch the roids and try to revive my old face? I can lose the bloat and revive my hairline with RU58841 a bit. Maybe a touch of HGH or something for the skin.
I'll be skinny as fuck again but I'll probably end up with 10-15 pounds more muscle than I had last time which can only be a plus.
about a year ago I let insecurities get the best of me because I thought I was far too skinny to be attractive. I went full roidcel mode. Didn't achieve the adonis bod but I put on 25 pounds of muscle. Now I'm 235 pounds 13% bodyfat but my face is ruined. I am holding water like a motherfucker. Jawline/cheeks are bloated to shit because of small facial features + test. Hairline has receded a bit. Skin looks old and tattered, like I lost my youthful glow. Bags under eyes always idk why.
and guess what? I have not received a single IOI since embarking on this madness. And my body dysmorphia has only gotten worse.
I have become depressed as shit because my face is ruined and I still don't have the body I want, or anything close b/c of delusional internet standards. I still feel small ffs.
I hate looking like this though. Should I just ditch the roids and try to revive my old face? I can lose the bloat and revive my hairline with RU58841 a bit. Maybe a touch of HGH or something for the skin.
I'll be skinny as fuck again but I'll probably end up with 10-15 pounds more muscle than I had last time which can only be a plus.