08-07-2015, 02:23 AM
The only girl I've ever been with. I felt so pathetic. She has a house with her boyfriend of two years. I felt blood rush to my ED-inflicted, opiate-addled penis; like my brain was yelling at me that she is my only chance to ever procreate. Some of my self felt some motivation to try again in life to spite her, but another part of my self felt defeated and driven further into the darkness. I hate how much control she has over me after all of these years.