All people here seem to think really badly of themselves. I have actually some self esteem left. I think I have handsome features and definitely something to work with. I'm not deformed, super short, obese, or any of that shit. I have a lot to improve though. Most important things are relatively simple (compared to maxillofacial surgery or something like that), like getting a tan, whitening my teeth, and new haircut and glasses. I have actually had girls approach me in high school and stuff. When I was 15 3 girls were in love with me at the same time. I know because other people gossipped about it. One girl was a 3/10 but the others were like 5.5/10 and 7/10. But was then way too beta and scared. However the last years I've lived very isolated from the world and a thought that keeps creeping up in my mind is that I'm wasting my chances in life. Because I have chances. I could probably not fuck something like Adriana Lima, but I could definitely fuck 5-7/10's. Sometimes I feel like I could have peace with my isolation much more easily if I were deformed or like 5'2. According to the luck theory thing, at least, I could have had good things happen to me the previous years if I wasn't just sitting in my room all the time.